Still Living In A Cloud

"Still Living In A Cloud"

I'm Still Living In A Cloud,

So High Up I Can't Come Down 

I See Shadows Marching With Me 

But Nobody Is Around 

All The Voices That Would Travel 

Through Vibrations In The Air 

And The Affections Of A Touch 

Are Both Dissolving In Despair 

The Fear Inside Me Has Adapted 

To The Risk I Chose To Take 

In A Cloud That Holds Me Captive 

For Exchange Of Time And Dates 

This Abode May Look Pretty 

But There's Ugliness It Covers 

Like A Puddle Mixed With Oil 

That Reflects The Pretty Colors 

Blurry Sky, Blurry Sky 

What's The Hurry For A Night 

You're Not Passing No One Up, 

We're All Stopping At The Light 

With A Foot Outside The Fog 

I Take A Look Around The Town 

And See The People That I Love,

Lost Inside The Same Ol' Cloud 

If I Jump, I Leap Alone,

Leaving Everything I Own 

My Storyline Will Disappear 

But I Will Overthrow This Throne 

Intertwining My Beliefs 

Around A Parachute Of Courage,

Getting Ready For A Fall 

To A Surface With A Purpose

Closed Eyes

"Closed Eyes"

I wasn't always pretty, sad but it's the ugly truth.

In fact, when I was dark, all my colors were one shade above black.

You were the first person to show me that love wasn't a myth.

The first eyes that I woke up to and the first soul that I kissed.

But I came home one day to find your mind had just left.

Taken by a monster that took more than your last breath.

The remaining presence that was left, I held tightly in my arms.

Leaking all my first tears on your shadow, blanket and palms.

Lights off. You faded away like fast passing cars.

And as I let go for the last time, all the memories just paused.

All that I have is the intro of a story that never felt the end,

a smell I can only remember and an imaginary friend.

There's not a single day that passes were you don't slither in my thoughts.

But if I could I wouldn't change it for all the beauty that it brought.

I couldn't tell you that everything happens for a reason without a cry,

but I can promise you that when you closed your eyes

I opened mine.

Living In A Cloud

"Living In A Cloud"

I Am Living In A Cloud

So High Up It Feels Surreal

Disappearance Of The Ground

Brings Appearance To A Realm

I Can Hear The Screams And Whispers

Begging For Acceptance

Writing Stories Of My Life

On The Dresses Of A Sentence

How I Ache Just To Sink

Through This Cloud And Come Down

To Hear The Flowers, Smell The Sun,

See The Winds And Touch The Sounds

Hypocritically Laughing

At Myself In Joyful Pain

I Have Met So Many Others

But I Only Know Their Names

Will They Even Recognize Me

If We Stood Side By Side

Will Their Words Give Definition

To The Depth Inside Their Eyes

All My Memories Are Droplets

Those That Mold This New Home

I'm A Slave To This Crave

But My Chains Give Room To Roam

Nothing Hidden Is Alone

Every Secret Has A Sound

What We Mutter Is Understood

Every Sigh Is Really Loud

Free Your Mind And Fly With Me

For This Cloud Will One Day Reign

The Dirty Skies Will Clear

And Our Lives Will Be Erased 

Without A Trace